Maybe it's the shocking realization that our little boy will arrive in eight weeks (or less - I'd be ok with a week or two early...). It may be due to the surge of goal planning and vision casting that surrounds the New Year - and realizing this year will introduce me to a new role I've never played before.
I don't want to fall into motherhood, without vision, or ideals, or purpose. Regardless of how a baby is conceived, women have nine months to prepare for their new position in life: mother. Fortunately, women also get a bit of a break in the first few months of their child's life, when the most important thing is keeping the kid alive, clean, and fed.
This week I finished reading Meeting Motherhood, a new e-book by Nicole Joelle (you can download the book, along with free Scripture printables, at the Meeting Motherhood website). I've been following her blog for the past few months and was excited to read her motherhood story, which started at week 28 of her pregnancy and went to her son's six month birthday. She shares her heart honestly about the physical and emotional changes and challenges in becoming a mother. I needed to hear her story, as I'm entering that same phase myself.
I laughed at all the same pregnancy problems she wrote about that I am experiencing now, then sobered up as I read about the first few draining weeks of motherhood.
I am in for some big changes. How I will react to them?
Maybe being a mother is just an extension of who I am as a woman. If I am a woman who loves Jesus, speaks life into people's lives, and trusts in God's control over the world, that affects how I will parent my child and how I shape their view of the world and of God.
This is who I want to be as a mother:
I want to be a mother who runs to Jesus - when she comes to the end of herself, her strength, her knowledge, her abilities, she doesn’t just throw up her hands in defeat or go looking for a human answer. She clings to the Word and to God’s promises and says, God, I trust in you, and I know you won’t abandon me.
Disclosure: Nicole sent me her e-book for free in exchange for an honest review, which I have given.