I know, you're thinking, "What? Didn't you stop working there like 5 months ago??" When I left in March, I officially took a leave of absence, thinking that if the internship was a flop, I'd still be able to go back to a job in KC.
Well, the internship definitely did not flop, and today I went into the ER to hand in my badge. I was almost lost, as the seemingly-eternal construction in the ER had finished while I was gone. I have to admit, I got a little teary-eyed walking through the halls that I had lived and breathed the past three years while working as a nurse there. I truly believe that the ER taught me how to be a nurse and gave me the best skills that I have. The staff are like family, and I was so happy to see many people that I hadn't spoken with since leaving. It was more difficult than I had imagined to tell everyone I wouldn't be coming back anytime soon. And I just marveled at the cleanliness and efficiency of the department - the idea that someone could walk in here and be assured of receiving the best care available - unlike the country where I am currently working in.
Although I haven't been in the ER for the past five months, I feel like today was truly the final day for me - a day of closure, realizing that we are really transitioning to a new life in Cambodia. Right now while I am in KC, I want so much to stay here! But - we have committed to two years there, and despite anything I may feel to the contrary, I know that it's the right decision.